A Little Spice

I'm happy in my relationship. Really, I am. I have been dating AJM for about 3.5 years now. Of all the young women I know, I am the only one in a consistent relationship with a great guy who truly loves the mess out of me. He doesn't BS me, he's open and honest, communicates... eventually, and is working toward being a better man.

But i'm a girl who likes spontaniety and a juicy story. I'm a thunderous river not a peaceful lake. AJM is the lake and that is why we work well together. He balances me out. But every now and then i need some excitement; a story to tell. Something I would have to run and dish to my best friend like, "girl, do you know he did THIS..." But AJM is not that kind of guy. He plays sports, stays at home, works and is a genuine GOOD guy. I'm going to visit him in a couple of weeks. Maybe he'll have an adventure planned?!?!?!

Here's to hoping.

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The Quarter-Life Crisis

Although I didn't write this piece, this was sooo True for me. I couldn't have said it better myself. This is definitely where I find myself right now and may be the reason I'm looking at the glass as half-empty right now (see below post).
This is for everone under 25 and maybe a few over. Have you been there? Are you still there?

The Quarter-Life Crisisby: Unknown

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Am I a glass half empty kind of person?

Is there anything wrong with that?

Life

Club
Dream
Career
Dream
Man
Dream
Spirituality
Pause........

Friends
Few
Shoes
Few
Money
Low
Gas
Low
Stress
Pause.......

Movies
Good
Respect
Good
Food
Good
Weight
Pause..........

back
weak
determination
weak
actions
weak
words
pause........

networking
lite
green
light
cream cheese
lite
aura
pause....

Assistant...Secretary...Whatever

When I have my company I'm not going to have any secretaries. I think secretaries are archaic. New wave corporoate structure and environment is changing. The only one's keeping hold of that stuffy old style are the OLD people.

I interned at the Office of Inspector General and I didn't realize how progressive they were, even as a governement agency. They were incoporating two new company policies.

1. Go where the work is

2. Knowledged centered work environment

The first is self-explanatory but was also the justification for their work-at-home program. If you can work best at home or in the field rather than at the office. Stay at home! The Inspector General even said there is no reason for employee's to come in and do minimal work in the office simply so that others can watch over them!! How progressive is that.

The second school of thought did away with the heirarchal corporate structure. Rather, the IP and top executives decided it was best to have a circular office structure. Give assignments to the person who can do the work and communicate circulararly not on a ladder system. Everyone in the offices knowledge is beneficial. It's the "Knights of the Roundtable" theory. It's so much better. (News room's and newspapers/magazines often work like this)

I applaud the OIG and other places like google who are merging the corporate environement with today's progressive theories.

At the place I'm working right now, the executive secretary is in full effect. It's so horrible. lower level managers to top level executives can't even write a letter or find their own files. They would be lost without secretaries because they are so dependent on them. Where is the dictophone!!! Yes, it is that old school. Law firms are very much like this too; very heirarchal.

So I repeat, when I have my own firm, I will do away with secretaries. Assistants will assist PROJECTS not PEOPLE and their work will be of value. This will cut costs too. I can write my own %&*! letter.

Ummmm....Goodmorning?

I had a rough night last night. My usual bedtime is 10ish but i went to bed at one because I was caught up in an argument! Not complaining about the argument but I am mad that i'm suffering for it this morning. I got to work about 10-15 minutes late! AH Well!

I can't wait for Sept 1. All the season premiers begin that day. I'm hyping myself up so they better be good. I hope they aren't overated. I want to watch the new 90210, Gossip Girl, Samuri Girl, One Tree Hill, and this other new show on the CW. I know what you're thinking. My selection of shows lacks a certain diversity.... LOL!! I know, but I still like them! Maybe its the fact that they take me away. And I like that dumb teenage stuff. Nothing too serious because life is serious.

I'm kicking myself that I didn't pick up Solange's album yesterday!! I promised I would because I want to support her. I haven't purchased an album in I don't know how many years. The only new music I get is from my sister when she sends me all her new cd's. (I call myself a music person). How horrible.

Today is wednesday. No church tonight but we do have family study................

I'm wearing my dress as a shirt today. It looks good. I'm about to convert all of my dresses into shirts for the rest of the week.

Maybe I should start writing stories. I haven't written a story in years. I'm a journalism major so only articles, news stories. Fact not fiction has been my forte. Well let's give fiction a try. I would love to write a novel but i think i tire of things to quickly and a novel requires a lot of long-suffering. (suffering-that's how I look at it). I'm fast-paced, always ready for the next thing. I look at it as a positive quality not a negative. Although I'm sure many would disagree. Maybe short stories, but I always hate novels that are a collection of short stories. The minute you get into one story, it ends and your supposed to pick up the pieces and move on to the next. Usually I throw the book away after one, being too heartbroken that a good one has come to an end too fast. I should be a book critique. This summer alone I must have read atleast 50 books. Honestly, I still read 1-2 books a day. Books take me to another world. When I'm reading a book the real world is at best HAZY until i'm finished. It's like I walk around not fully "there" until the novel is complete because I'm so caught up in the pages. It's kind of bad. My boyfriend can barely reach me when I'm in the middle of a book. That's why it only takes me one day to finish. I HAVE TOO.

I have to pitch these stories today. I put them off long enough! Time is winding down, it's wednesday!

Well, goodmorning to you!

THANK YOU

Thank you Ne-Yo for making mainstream Hip Hop and R&B GROW the heck up! 

He said 'somethings sexy about a woman who pays her car note and mortgage and 'bout to pay them both off!!! AND pays them on time!!  There is nothing cute about not paying your bills on time but you look good!! 

The women are in his Miss Independent video are in positions of power, Neyo said "You not getting the coffee, you leading the meeting." YES!! Not only does this girl in his video have a job she's the boss. In every other Hip Hop video women are just there as wallpaper and at a man's beck and call. Thank you Neyo for praising women who Do something with themselves. In all honesty, that's more representative of our society anyway. Black women have always been on their grind.

Yea, I'm working on mine so you work on yours

Not one for words

My father just pissed me off. I'm sitting by the dining room table and the phone rings. It's my aunt. He walks right up to the phone and stares at the caller ID. I explain that its aunt V and still, he does not pick up. He said if mom wants to talk to her she would pick up. Mom is probably not by the phone!!!!! I'm pissed because he always does this. When I call him he doesn't answer my calls either, even though I know he's home. I have to call like 3 times in a row before he answers. Pick up the &%!@ phone!!!

LOL

On that midnight train to.... Oklahoma?

Yea, that's right folks. Here we go again!!!! My man is going back to school and this time (since I have graduated) I will not be going back with him. I'm here in DC and he's there in Oklahoma..... for another year and a half. We went through this before and it wasn't all good. SO, I repeat. HERE WE GO AGAIN %$&%$^$%$%!!!!

You Can Have Whatever You Like

Awww man, I am falling in Love with T.I again. I can't wait for his new album. I don't know if that was PR but having that be his first single was a good look!!!!! It was so sweet.

The song and video is about a man meeting a girl who is living a very humble life and he introduces her to nice things. There are no pretenses. She doesn't come off as a gold digger and the man is not EXPECTING things in return. The relationship is geniune. Man, if that could happen in real life.

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• MTV Shows
• Entertainment News

MAKING THE BAND 4: Let's make it happen

Yea! This show was hot! I'm going to be watching this on the regular! Here is my recap:

1. The boys can SING!! WHEW!! I'm already buying that album

2. D.Woods, Dawn and Shannon can sing

3. Abri is.... dare i say it.... too much/slutty. She needs to sit down

4. Diddy gets on my nerves. Those boys sounded good in the studio. He's making drama out of nothing. I think half of that crap is for tv. The other half is him trying to intimidate somebody. He needs to go sit down with Abri.

5. I think Qwanell and Will are some cool dudes.

6. I think Dawn and Q are cute. HOWEVER, don't mix business with pleasure.

7. Why does this have to be a competition. Why does it have to be THAT much stressful for them. GEEZ

8. If Diddy wasn't on the show, I'd still watch

9. The boyz need a group name. REGARDLESS, i'm still buying that album. That first song was so hott

10. I will be watching next week. 

That's my top 10 thoughts y'all. What did you think??

My own Version of "WHO ROCKED IT BETTER

WE ALL KNOW THE ANSWER!!! You betta recognize

I love this commercial

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6RihgY91E-Y

Especially the part where the man is schocked and he throws his stuff away. lol

I admit it....I'ma, I'ma hustler

(Disclaimer: I'm in one of those moods were i'm proud of myself and excited about my future. Please excuse me if this post sounds haughty -- for lack of a better word. Many people have nurtured and believed in me. That and Jehovah are the source of my convictions and drive.. Now, let me get this KANYE WEST off my chest)

Y'all don't know my struggle. Y'all can't match my hustle. You can't catch my hustle. You can't fathom my love, dude."

(10 cents to the person who knows what song this is from)

Don't get it twisted now, I'm legit. But i'm still a hustler. I'm about to graduate college in 4 months and i'm on my grind. I've got a client that i'm doing a PR campaign for, Another company wants to be my client for some copy and PR work, and I just got an inquiry into some graphic design for a third company. But you know what's funny, I don't even have a business card yet, nonetheless a company. That's what you call a hustler.

Plus, they don't know it yet, but Perry Publishing and Broadcasting (yes, the people who hired me to write for The Black Chronicle) just found his newest PR intern too.

Yesterday I told me new mentor, "I just need someone to let me in the door because once they do watch out." YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO CATCH ME. It might be in your best interst to keep me out if you want to make some money in the Entertainemnt, graphic design, magazine and PR field. I do it all.

You know how Kanye locked himself in his room doing five beats a day for three summers. I kept myself in Oklahoma learning EVERY aspect of any type of the mass communications business. I learned how to start a magazine from the business side. I learned how to write the features that go inside. I learned how to do graphic design with InDesign and Photoshop. Meaning, I can make anything from a party flyer to the 50 page spread in Vogue. I learned how to do PR Research, I learned how to coordinate a camapaign. I became the EXECUTIVE PRODUCER of the largest step show in the Midwest with a $30,000 budget $45,000 in ticket sales alone and told Fonsworth Bently what to say on the stage. the hottest DJ in Houston just called my phone asking me if I could coordinate an event to bring Soldier Boy and dem (and dem, haha) to OKC last minute. I learned how to do press releases and brochures and fact sheets and issue ads. OH yea, I can make advertisments too!!! I know what a bleed is. Basically, whatever you need I CAN GET IT DONE, believe me.

Hate me if you want to, but in this business you got to believe you can do anything... and I can. I love this stuff. It's my passion. Wish me luck cuz i'm bout to take off.


Anybody want a ride????????

JAY Z's video and single make me want to go home so bad and go to the club!!!

I'M IN THE HOUSE!!!

My Column

SO, it's Thursday, 3:18pm. You know where I am. Sociology class!!!! Ha Ha. Zuri said my senioritis is getting bad. She has no idea!!!

Today I had an interview with The Perry Broadcasting and Publishing Company for the newspaper, The Black Chronicle. I begin with the standard 30 day trail starting in January. I'm going to begin writing on the website. I can write about whatever I want but i can write if from whatever angle I want. My job? To foster controversy and community discussion. I am advised to write under and alias, which my public will never ever knooooowwww (lol). I'll be good at this. My demographic, African Americans age 18 - 35. If you guys come accross good issues with Black people in the community, send me over your ideas!!

My version of Ran-Dubm thoughts (2)

So, while some people use blogs to get through their day at work, I'm blogging to make it through Sociology 4693. What is that man talking about. I feel like Charlie Brown with the teacher that says "whomp whomp whomp whomp." Wow, finally see the symbolism in that. What most proffesors say are not really that important. As you get older your realize that they are biased and stubborn.

We had to do evaluations in all of our classes today. I didn't do them. I don't care anymore. I used to do them because i cared.

So here's what the decision boils down to for the democratic race. In my opinion, both Obama and Hillary will do a good job. So the ultimate question is. What is more important for me? Am I black first or am I a female first? What is more important to us as black females?

I'm tired and I want to eat but i can't. I'm almost out of meal points and all out of food. I got to go to the grocery store. I have to wait until 7pm because we are having free food at our BSA meeting!! I just want a snack. I feel like a feign.

I don't want to do my work either. I have an assignement due today but i'll start that at 5pm. It's due at 6pm. It's just corrections though. Whatever.

I'm just so ready to come home I need a break from school... I NEED TO GRADUATE.

My interview with Perry Publishing and Broadcasting Company is thursday. Wish me luck. I think I'm going to be writing for The Black Chronicle... if I get the job.

I'm thinking about a credit card. But then i think of all the people at my job at Express who are wearing clothes they 10% own. How stupid is that??? The clothes on your back aren't even yours. People say, you shouldn't chargeif you don't have the money. Well then, pay for it cash! But it builds credit, they say. I'm sure there is some other way to buy a house in America than get a mastercard. If there is not, the system is compeletly messed up.

so Mike's on Ebony this month.

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